Let me just explain things plainly:

My former best friend from childhood’s dad was just diagnosed with a rare degenerative neurological condition called Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease. This, after her mom (who used to be babysit me in elementary school) died four years ago from cancer.

This is why I feel like I need to step back from Tumblr for a while. Because things like that are what matters…not the things that I have been letting get to me here on Tumblr. I see/feel myself getting worked up over stuff that I know isn’t important, and I want to cringe.

One thing to know about me is that I have this tendency to care too much about people. Even if I don’t often talk to someone, if I consider them a friend, I hold their feelings in the highest regard. And I expect (or at least hope) that they hold my feelings in a similar regard.

So if this is not you…if you have no problem with casting me aside without a word…then maybe we shouldn’t be friends. Maybe we should get out of this social contract before it goes too far, cause if you’re not wanting to respect me in the way that I respect you, it’s probably not going to work out in the end.

I realize that I am not an easy person to be friends with. I’ve driven people away just by being who I am, and one of the greatest fears that I live with is the fear that I’ll eventually drive all of my friends away, for good. So that gives you a choice here:

You can be one of the people who proves me right, or you can be one of the people who proves me wrong.

I hope you’ll prove me wrong.